Now Ray J admits he signed a contact that he didn't understand and became suicidal after being portrayed as the villain...
From The Daily Mail
Ray J now regrets his role in releasing the tape after he was publicly blamed for leaking it but has been unable to correct the record due to the contract that he had signed without legal advice.
The Love and Hip Hop star says the tape and his role as the villain of the piece has blighted his career and relationships – and even left him feeling suicidal at one stage.
'I felt suicidal because when you know something's real and it's true and you're watching a whole family create an empire from a lie they've created, it's heartbreaking and disrespectful to all the entertainers who have been honest and true to their craft.
'As a black man living and working in America, it's hard to get up every day and look out at the water or look at my family and know that they think something about you when you know it's 1,000 per cent the other way. How do you live like that?
'I couldn't be a part of any reputable major network television show and do Dancing with the Stars, and do America's Got Talent or anything like that because of my image.
'Because of what they made me, I'm not allowed to be in those places.'
The singer added: 'For me, I've been walking on eggshells thinking I'm going to get in trouble for telling the truth and I've been holding onto it for the past 14 years and watching them humiliate me. They're celebrating my destruction.'
He said he had been forced to live a lie and now wants the truth to come out so he can show people – most importantly his daughter three-year-old daughter Melody – that he's not 'a bad guy who exploits and disrespects women'.
Ray J said: 'Where in this whole story did Ray J become the person who leaked the tape and who's made their lives miserable?
'How do you believe that Ray J is the enemy of all enemies when we've been partners from the beginning of the sex tape being released up until now? We're all still making money.
'But yet you go with defame me and blame me over and over and I can't do nothing but defend my honor and speak out and tell the truth.
He said the final straw came when the Kardashians made the tape a storyline in their new Hulu show – at one point discussing whether he might have any more material, including a moment when Kim said he might have a video showing him 'sticking a dildo in my a**'.
In a later episode, her estranged husband Kanye West is seen boasting about collecting a laptop from Ray J and saying his family would no longer be 'extorted'.
But furious Ray J says the reality was very different: he handed over the device stuffed with intimate photos and 'mini-videos' sent to him during their four-year relationship after he heard via Kanye that Kim was worried about what kind of material the laptop might contain.
