Last week Serena Williams was the talk of the blogsphere after she posted about love lost on her personal blog. People couldn't decide if she was talking about actor Jackie Long or rapper Common, both of whom she'd been linked to recently. She tells TheAge.com , "The funny thing is I didn't know it would be that big. Not that many people go on my website, which is fantastic. So many hits. It was like, oh my God." Serena has since removed the blog from her page, but here it is, in case you missed it:.."You just start dating a guy and he likes you and you like him right… You guys want to spend every second together, but you can't. You both have jobs that take you away from each others life. You spend hours on the phone with him. You talk to him everyday. You have deep feelings for him. The feelings keep developing. They keep growing. You begin to think this could be it. You begin to think I really think this is it for me, he’s the one....You love being together. You can't stand being without each other. You start to feel like you have never felt before, and you do things for him you have never done before. You cook, you clean, and you help him organize. He tells you he doesn’t want to be with anyone else. He tells you he adores you. He tells you God made you for him.You believe him. You caress him. You love him. You take things slow. You don't want to make any mistakes. You go slower with him than you have ever done before. You don't rush to introduce him to your parents; you want it to be right. You are feeling this and you feel this could mean forever. He prays with you. He thanks God you are in his life. You guys go to a place of worship together. You guys read together. He talks about being and becoming one with you. He talks about his capacity to love you. He talks about his heart can't be full without you in his life. You think he's falling in love with you. You guys have not said that sacred 4 letter word that starts with an "L". But you are desperate to say it, but you won't until he does. But you feel it deep deep in you. Deeper than you ever have before.You ask him "are we moving too fast"? He replies "you can't force how you feel, and you can't stop your feelings, we just have a deep connection. We r not moving fast we both know how we feel for each other. We are just following our hearts." You start to trust him. Something you have not done since your first heart break. Something you vowed you would never do again. But slowly your heart comes out of its steel enclosure. You feel like you can trust him. You feel as if everything you went though was for a reason. And the reason was to meet him. The case that your heart is in gets looser each day at first, than each minute. Days turn into weeks. And he tells you about the connection you guys have in each others hearts.Weeks turn into months and you no longer talk to anyone else just him. And then it happens. No not the "L" word. But what you have been most afraid of. What deep in your heart you have been afraid to confront. What you always suspected would happen one day sooner or later. HE STOPS CALLING. You panic. But you try to stay calm. He did this before when you first started talking, but u tried to forget it. He disappears for 2 days no phone call. No answer to yours no nothing. This is the very reason you begin to think why your heart was in that steel enclosure. The reason you don't put your emotions your feelings, your heart into any man. Because one day it always turns into this day, but you are already too far out you are at the point of no return, you can't come back. You are too far gone. You can't believe, although a piece of you does believe it.What did you do wrong? You wonder. Was it something I said? Was it something I did? Was it the way I acted? Was I too nice? Was I too mean? What was it? You know its not you, but u cant help but look at that man in the mirror. You can't help but pick yourself apart. Were you too nice? Why did you go against your rules? Why were you nice? Why did you cook? Why did you clean? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? And again and again you can't come up with the answer.Slowly as you try to focus on other things and think of other people you put you heart back into that steel case. And throw away the keys. Tears make you feel a little better, but the pain is piercing through your soul. The pain never hurts as bad as the first time. Never as bad as the first heart break. But all the same you can't help but feel hopeless, foolish. Your great chance to be with your soul mate has again somehow slipped and failed. But eventually you know you will pick yourself up. Eventually you know you will try again. And eventually you know u will find the keys to you heart, but also in the back of your mind you think.... It will happen again.
Serena"
